How long does it take to get “there”? Why can’t I, as a filmmaker, get that one person who can make a difference to say “I WILL HELP YOU” and “YOU CAN COUNT ON ME”.
The more I let myself dip into a feeling of despair, I notice a wave of stagnation seeping over me. I start to feel a cold sea of darkness around me… and my dreams of making art begin to drown.
I wonder if anyone else feels that way. Am I alone in this experience? Does anyone relate?
Of course, we all feel that way. We all get bummed out from time to time.
We feel the disappointment or frustration so deeply because we LOVE and CARE so much about the thing we want to achieve. It just gets us down because we want it badly, but can’t quite get it to happen they way we want (or on the timeline we want.)
When I’m bummed, I (re)learn every single time that I can get myself out of that stuck place. I just have to remind myself that I lost touch for a moment with my CREATIVITY.
When I’m in a creative space, I feel alive and excited and able to connect with others. I feel no boundaries, only waves of inspirations. I feel eager to learn something new and try something daring or fun.
But getting out of the stagnant and into the creative isn’t always easy.
The irony is that the little teeny tiny things can get us out of the big slump.
Here’s one small thing I do when I catch myself in a slump.
I make myself a hot chocolate, something I love. Then I pull out a blank sheet of paper, grab crayons and doodle with my imagination. I just allow my enjoyment of little things to drift back.
Reflect on these questions as you let the crayon doodling begin.
This weekend, when I did this child-like exercise with crayons, without a goal in mind, just doodling and asking questions, I suddenly came up with some fun ideas to generate! As an artist and as a teacher.
Being in that creative, playful mind allows new thinking about how to move past obstacles. How to break old patterns and limiting beliefs.
Now, instead of feeling stagnant without hope or direction, I have new ideas bubbling inside of me. (I’m even beta testing a fresh class idea this week at The New School!). I feel on track again. Being creative. Generating my ideas.
When bummed out, we sit on our bums. So, we must do everything we can to nurture our creative spirits in the face of being bummed out.
Grab a box of crayons or take a walk outside and smell the dropping leaves. Make a goofy video on your phone and stir a cup of hot chocolate. Embrace the small things that inspire and rejuvenate and get your creative juices flowing.
Keep playing with your dreams, nurturing that creative and open self, so that we can swim above the seas of despair.
Your crayon pal,
P.S. – Markers, pencils, iPad sketch apps, Pinterest, they all work too. No excuse to not PLAY with your dreams!
Comment below and tell us how you push yourself forward when bummed out!
Still: SHOPLIFTERS (2018)